like the way u treat me..!?3

i miss u n i hate u..
y did u do like that?
i thought we juz pretends?
but this is very far..
i mean wat juz we do ?
wat is our status?
i thought we are frends?
but last nyte?
damm...!that was scary..
i dont want fall in love with u..!
u no body to me!
pless...!tell me something.?
did i was wrong?
hear u said like that?
wat we do last nyte?
is there a meaning for all of this?
yes i admit it..'
i think i crazy seeing u like that?
but why me?
did i do something wrong?
n now u change ur minds again ryte?
after u see that guy>
u start to let me go ryte?
but why ?
did i ever say i want to go with that guys?
i juz want u to stay by my side
i dont want anything else..!
n the truth is i afraid i going to lose u again..
i juz want u for  my whole life..
and now u dont want to see me again ryte..
i understands u feeling..
if u want to go,,
u can go..
coz now i know i juz ur doll..
there is nothing else ryte..
u seeing another gurlz ryte?
sorry 4 disturb ur relationship..
i will try my best on my next relationship..
to tell u the truth i little in love with u..
but i think i hate u now..
then it will easy for me to let u go ryte?
thanks 4 evrything!

like the way ur ignore u fone..!

it been two day u not calling me..
then yesterday we talk in a phone..
u honest to me saying that u ignore me bcoz i hurting ur feelings..
sorrry keyh...
i know i was wrong for make the attitude like that...
the thing is i was afraid...


i keep thinking that one day u will have family..
u will forget me...
but then i realised something...
if u want to leave me ,,,
u will laeve me juz like that..


but now u...
when i think back..
i know i cant leave without u...
thanks 4 making me comfort..
thanks for making me like i the only gurlz..
thanks 4 making me like i in urs life forever...


thanks 4 making me happy...
u are the best u know that ryte?
and u also ask me why i love u ryte?
hmm...i dunno...coz i keep asking the same question?
but one thing i know ,,,
when i cry 
when i sick
when i sad
when i need sumone..
u always there ..
waiting 4 me..


u taking care of me 
and that make me feel uncomfortable..
that why i taking care of u now..
coz with u i can feel lik i the only gurlz..
the lucky one.
thanks..


but if u love somebody i will be the first person who will always happy 4 u...
thank you very much dear MR-X/NZ JOKER...!:)

5.34pm

it was me who work hard for this relationship...!

it was me who will take the blame...

and it was me who want u always near with me...

and no ...it was nothing...but being near with u give me some thing that i never ever had..!

being with also make me happy...

being with also never make me want anybody,,

but ..!

i know that some day u will go again...!

n until that day i will prepare myself..

i was wrong bcoz put aside people that love me..

why i even care about ur feelings...!

that is nothing good come from u...

u only make thing worse...!

n why i even care about u..!

y i have to take care of you?

y i have push people around me ?

n y u make people believe that u n i are the same?

see i told u already ..!

luckily what we do what we say has nothing effect on me..

the way u hold me the way u comfort me the way u treat me the way u care me

the way u hold me when i was crying..the way i need some shoulder

the way i make u crazy the way u make me laugh 

the way u make me like i need u the way u make me always stand beside you

the way u mad at me coz doing something when u not present

the way u angry with me when i try to lift heavy thing..

the way u mad at me coz doing some chores

the way u mad at me coz go some place all alone

the way u mad at me coz being all alone in the middle of night

the way u mad at me coz  i being silly n crazy n said ok fine..:)

the way u said i was everything...haha...funny rite,,,coz none of this will make me comfort with myself...

n the true is u light up my day...

u give some kind of happyness drug...

with u i dont think i can ever think about another guys...

n now u said u want to disappeared?

ok..

juz one i want to say...

u can go..i not somebody who will stop u...

i am nobody...

u can go...n thanks 4 the everything..

it really not  pain i  have but it was sadness...

thanks keyh!!

?confius?

hate me for saying like this ,,,
but the only thing that i realised that wat ever happen...!
there is no turning back...


hate me for sumthing i did't do..
to me he is the friend that i ever wanted...
but it seem there something wrong...
coz as a friend we dont do like some lover do..?


but to me...
watever he do or i do is seem has no effect on me,,
there is no heartbeat,,,
yeah,,,it seem like couple to you all..
but to me it was normal..
yeah maybe someone will say like this
:hey do you got him as ur bf?
:hey just go n take him as bf..


      and i doing face like this??

     ???
see the face..?
yeah that me?
when i answer people question?
haha...
kk bye u guys..
i will update keyh!

yosh...!

yosh...!

haish...fening pale aq...

lps satu satu...haish,,

terjebak lg...

haha...camne pon aq akn still pilih dye...

mengikut judge aq la kn..

dye yg terbek la kowt...

sbb bru nk knl haty dye camne kn...

tah cam ne tah...ble jumpa dye walaupon dri jauh haty aq bpk gle best doh...

it feel like dye akn mengajar aq erti kehidupan..

x prnh aq ase cam nk knl dye...haha...funnny...!.

org ckp cinta x kn kite tau sehingga kite tol2 pasty dye la org nyer..

walau cam mne pon org melafazkn chenta ke syg ke ape ke?

aq x rsa pape...juz lyn jek la..

coz not my type la amek org yg ska ayt manis nie..!

eeeuuwwww!!..haha...grau je k guys..

but honestly aq x minat pon..

minat aq lebey pada keje..lgu...n game..

haha...aq nie fanatik sikit kt game ngan lagu..

so bl aq ska kt org totally aq sendiri pon x tau cam ne key jdk kn..

so aq ikut je masa...

tp yg penting twillight kuar nnt da adew org ajk aq..

yg dye ni pon stu lembap tol la...

haish..!

~pearl~

have u ever feel like u hurt someone heart even you did't do anything?
i think i might or maybe juz do...
sometimes i dont know wat i do ...~
i really dont understand...~
one minute u good to me...
~next thing i know u really mad at me?


~have u ever feel like u want to give up ur life~
  ~give up ur love~?
~give up ur life social?


if you ever feel like that u may as well forget..


dont be like me..
i want people around me satisfied with me..
so i give whole my life..
i dedicated my life only to my family...
i have all kind of friends..
my intention is dont fall in love with them...


but ryte now..
so many people fall in love with me..'
the reason i cannot accept is u all are my friends..
i love u all...


this is not because of u face?
ur status wheather u are poor or rich...
this also is not about u physical...weather u tall or short.....


because u all are so nice,,,
i rather not have some relationship...
because if i have a somekind of relationship with u i might lose u forever..,
n when i lose u i might also lose happy..


but i really love u all ..
there some person that i like...
i choose that person coz i know wat my heart feel like..
it might be one side love...


but i rather choose him then i choose u..
coz it might make u a little sad..
but that only for temporary..
i would rather  choose u sad for a while then forever,,,
i know some day u will have some one good for ur life than me..


i juz one stop person..
i juz like a bus come and take person..
i come and stop at ur life to take the unhappy feeling in your life..
then when i see u happy i have to go..
i have to make same thing to other,,.


so dont u ever fall in love with me...
coz i dont know wheather i can respond  to you love or not...
i soorryy keyh...


BUT WE WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS...WHEN U SAD I CAME TO SAVE UR LIFE...
BUT WHEN A GURLZ LIKE U JUZ GO OK..DONT WAIT FOR ME..!BUT I WILL ALWAYS WITH U...NOT ONLY U BUT TO ALL MY FRIENDS...!~~~_~~~~

~wat the necklace..~

~my phone gone again..
hate it hate it....!
~somebody help me...
~i always put my phone anywhere,,,
~urm...still missing...~
arrghhh`...!
have to search my phone....
aiyak...1~`~~